"Well, I'm not planning to force her to accept what she doesn't accept. I've been dark places... I've seen how hard it can be to accept something about oneself... And she's not the only one who has changed from our meeting. Don't think that's so, because it's not."
Her eyes stared up at Athea sternly. Her body still trembled, but her eyes held no fear as she let her voice ring into song. She was already mostly bare- to let her heart be such as well wouldn't be as scary, not if she felt she could ring through to both the souls in the single body she saw.
"Walking along the line~
Working to make the time
To see you when you're worried
And surely not feeling fine.
The line that was once so thin,
Between lover and stranger and friend,
Has suddenly made a deeper mark
Suddenly created a worthy spark,
I don't know why, but I-
I've lost myself in time
Wondering whether you'll find me,
Wondering if I should hide me..."
She soon realized, as she sang, that her eyes were in tears- and her words felt convoluted at best, despite the picture so clear in her head. She took a deep breath, stopping her song short.
Sometimes, it was better to let herself ramble, she realized. And ramble she certainly did. "I was told many moons ago... That the border between good and bad was fickle, that my mind was but a switch for a light. I've been afraid of people since I was little...I've lost a lot of them, albeit in a different way. I spent over a decade now, constantly feeling that if I wanted to keep someone near, I had to be in love with them- because otherwise, they'd leave my side like all the rest. But because of that... I didn't know what love was anymore. To me... It was too scary to think anything would last, so I tried to grasp at many at a time so I'd never be alone. But..."
With a shiver, she moved to grab hold of Athea's hand. "Kaede changed that... She told me to sing from my heart, and that made me realize I didn't even know my heart anymore. That's why... When she came to me and said she wanted to find herself s well... I decided that, for the woman who gave me a new perspective, who made me really look at myself... I'd do what I could to help her. To see that smile I'd grown to cherish from the beginning. You may say that it would be better if we hadn't met... But I'll never believe that. I also don't believe it's really a matter of one or the other. Rather than that... I think it might be best if Kaede's choice weren't so cut and dry. To her, you're separate even if you're the same. But...If you force your way, you'll only scare her more than she is of herself, Athea. I know you truly love her... So instead of sharing that love with others to hide your worries, you should try to talk to her directly. Tell her how you feel... Tell her you love her, and you miss her. Tell her you want to live peacefully... That you want her to smile. And then... Let her decide for herself what will make her smile- and try to smile alongside her. If she decides she won't smile with me... I'll accept that, albeit not happily. I'll watch from the shadows to watch her smile. But... If I'm willing to do that, shouldn't you, who's closer to her, be able to do the same? To support what she's longing for, rather than selfishly try to force her hand like this?"
Realizing she was no longer wanted or welcome at least by the woman in the room, she smiled sadly and retracted her hand, finding herself being forced outside. Hearing sobs, she leaned her forehead on the door that had slammed in her face, tearing silently for a time. "Kaede...Is the one I truly love. And that's why... What I want is her happiness, even if I'll have to say goodbye. So long as I can see her feeling at ease with herself, not harmed by hear own heart... I'll be more than satisfied, even if I'm left alone once more."