Private - A warrior's mind

All the training was over! Thanks to her master and his teachings, Lesalia now knew how to harness her mana to use holy magic so that she could use it to heal people like her Master! Through her tough lessons she managed to heal one of the King's maid who her Master had put a curse markl on than again she used her new abilities to heal her Master's blinded eyes so he could see again! IT was a great experience and she learned alot but she wanted to help her Master out too! She healed him physically but what about the inside? What about the mind? Lesalia wasn't the first to see it that her Master had gone through alot before coming here probably! If he was in so much mental pain than she would need to help! Lesalia wanted to help! Right after her training, that was it! She decided right than and there she would see If she could try and understand his pain that he carried! It was her duty as his healer after all! After her training, Lesalia and her Master took a rest in his quaters. She took a short nap in an attempt to recharge herself while her Master sat in a chair and read a book in silence as he usually did. When Lesalia woke up a hour later, her eyes peeked open at the ceiling. She turned her head slowly. She still saw Seto sitting in his chair still reading his book. She lifted the covers off herself and stretched her arms high up in the air before sharing a warm smile at her Master. "Master that was a nice nap! Thank you for letting me use your bed to take a short nap. I'm all ok now!" Lesalia swung her legs to the side of the bed and pushed her bangs behind her over her shoulders.She walked across the wooden floor and took a seat across from her Master in another chair separated by a end table. "I want to thank you again Master for teaching me how to use my magic so If you would let me. I would like to help you. You see Master I healed you physically but when I did I felt all the burdans you carried within. Please Master I beg of you! Please let me heal your mind too! Or help me understand your pain so I can help you! I know your strong but everyone has something they bottle up. Let me help you release that burden!"

@Seto Kurama


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So much time had passed since they had started with himself cursing a maid girl of Seto so Lesalia could learn how to control her energy within her bodies energy network. After so many painful hours of torture as long as Seto was concerned, Lesalia managed to learn how to feel her energy within her bodies energy network, move the energy required to a destination place within her body like her hands and finally bring it up so it can take a physical approach. After such training, Seto could rest a little easier knowing his new healer now knew how to harness her energy so she could heal him and countless others, now she only needed more experience to become stronger. Of course, there was also the fact he was still blind to the power of the dark arts he controlled. Luckily for him, Lesalia was able to use what she had learned from him to heal his eyes so he could see. This made Seto obviously pleased in response since he could obviously see again. He was disgusted with himself of course though. "How could a master of the dark arts blind himself" Those words continued to run around his mind, it was so shameful and pathetic that he swore he would never do such a thing ever again no matter what. Still, after he was cured of his dreaded blindness, Lesalia was tired from using her ability to use magic and his eyes needed rest since it would take time for him to see again so he decided it was time for a nice, long break that was well deserved. Since Lesalia had proven herself so well, Seto had decided to grant her usage of his bed to sleep on while he took it easy in a chair near the window. Under normal circumstances, Lesalia would do something akin to a high schooler but since she was so tired, he assumed she was too tired do what she did usually, she obviously bowed to show her respect but she took her leave and laid down in his bed to regain some of her strength. Once she was comfortable napping in his bed, Seto took his position in a wooden chair at the window, crossed his arms and closed his eyes, creating the blackness he was all too familiar with. Unlike the majority of the time, he dreamt of nothing, there was only the void of the blackness to comfort him while he tried to sleep. Eventually, after some time, Seto shrugged his shoulders and gave up since he couldn't sleep well enough to get any rest yet he didn't want to wake up Lesalia who earned her own sleep. His eyes did feel far better so he thought he would give them a test run to see how well they were and he was a tad bored as well. From out from his Kimono's sleeve, Seto's rare copy of Icha Icha fumbled out. He picked it up from his sleeve with his right hand turned to page one hundred and twenty-nine, where he left off previously when he ran into Vivian a few days ago.

Unfortunately for himself, Seto had only gotten an hour worth of reading before he noticed Lesalia in the corner of his eye waking up as she shot her arms up, yawning. He didn't say anything, preferring to stay silent, even when Lesalia looked directly at him, glaring as she did usually. Seto simply eyed her as Lesalia thanked him for the nap she was able to have thanks to him. He didn't really care personally but he was a man of his word and she proved herself so of course, he would grant her some time to rest. After a few minutes, Lesalia managed to drag herself out of his bed and took a seat next to him in a chair with an end table between them before she there with a serious expression, demanding that she wanted to help him by healing his mental condition or at least and try to understand the pain he had been forced to carry with some time. Seto sighed as he shook his head, Seto considered what she asked as a lost cause, she could try all she wanted but he doubted she would ever understand her pain but at the same time, he couldn't say no. Lesalia was like Emmeline who shared the will to help those in need and he couldn't exactly say no to her.

Seto

"Sigh.........What you ask of me.......Do you understand what you ask truly? The pain I have and what it takes to carry it and what it does to push me would break many and some may even die and flicker away like a flame in the rain. What you ask is not something I speak of lightly but even still........I am.....honoured that are people such as you and Emmeline would think of me as a human than some mere monster who seeks the destruction of the world. I am what I am due to all the events that transpired to this point in my life. Not once in this world.....have I ever been free from the shackles of war, death, famine and...slavery....It seemed even from the geck go, I could not escape the real world so here we are...Hmph this world is twisted in the darkness and using my own hands, I will build a better tomorrow in this world at the stake of my own life since I have failed in the real world. The real world may be a horrible place but here......Here I make this place a paradise.....I will make it a reality even If I must die in the process.....That is my reason to exist but despite all that, it isn't the only burden I carry on my shoulder......No there are many and my hands drenched in blood.....I am content with going to hell."

 

Lesalia didn't like her Master sighing in front of her and shook his head but was her Master serious accepting her plea to help him? Lesalia was amazed how much her Master said! He said so much it was hard for Lesalia to keep up! But despite all that talking he did! Lesalia was going to the best listener she could and try her best to understand! It wasn't like every day her Master told his servants the inner works of his mind? Maybe Emmeline knew? She was the oldest one among them she thought. When her Master began talking, Lesalia leaned in with her hands holding her head up while she had a serious face on! At first her Master began talking about the pain he carried on his shoulders and how the pain he carried could kill a person. She could tell this wasn't easy for her Master to talk about the topic. She wondered really bad what had happened to her Master that would make him like this? Did he have to kill a lover? Did he see his entire family die? There was so many outcomes Lesalia didn't want to think about it! But she had to for her Master's sake. She had no choice but it was ok since she wanted to help him overcome this! Lesalia's heart warmed up like the sun when her Master told her he was honored to have people like her who wanted to help him! Such talk made Lesalia cry! Without saying a word, Lesalia thew her arms across the table and wrapped what she could with her arms. "No Master! I'm honored that you would talk to me! Please Master, tell me everything so I can help you! I don't like seeing you in so much pain! No person should be in so much pain as you. Please tell me everything. Let it all out Master!" k After a few seconds, Lesalia pulled away her arms and sat down correctly in her chair, listening the best she could to her Master's words. What her Master said next was hard to understand. She didn't really get it, what did he mean by being a slave? War? Famine? What does it mean? He said he couldn't escape from it? Here and the real world? Lesalia became more puzzled the more she listened but she kept her serious face on! Her Master was poetic with his words, she only understood some of what her Master said like wanting to do what he can to save this world and make it a paradise even If he died. Lesalia couldn't understand his plan but she was going to support him in his plans no matter what he asked! Her Master remark with him being ok with him going to Hell wasn't good but she wouldn't let it bother her! "I am sorry My Master, I do not understand everything you have told me but thank you opening yourself to me, I understand you want to make this place peaceful like a paradise. Master I promise I will do whatever you ask of me to help make your plan a reality!"

 

Judging by how serious her facial expression was and how she position her arms as an arm rest for her head, Seto was quite impressed how serious she was, especially when she stayed silent as he spoke his mind....well until one remark. It didn't take long for Lesalia to get herself out of hand when he thanked her for listening to him, Lesalia in response nearly jumped out of her chair and over the table and had swung her arms around him while she cried in joy, telling him she was the honoured one to talk to him and the fact she wanted to help him. Such gripping from a woman caused Seto struggle for air, he didn't expect Lesalia to give him such a strong hug, it was a good thing she pulled away quickly after a few seconds. It gave him the chance to inhale some heavy breaths so he could could at ease once more. When he looked over, Lesalia was sitting in her chair correctly with her hands laying on top of each other on her dress while she still had a determined look on her face. Despite her very best, he knew what he had said was hard to understand, even the most intelligent on here had an issue with what he how he spoke so he didn't expect her to understand everything. It did seem towards the end, she did at least graps the basic concept of the kind of world he wanted to build. She clearly made this apparent as she even told him after apologizing she didn't understand he had said but she did confirm she understood the basic concept. Seto's eye's widened pretty significantly when she promised him she would do whatever necessary to make his plan reality. Such a sentence almost made Seto cry at the thought, he did weap at the sight though, the tear ran down his cheeck before hitting the ground between his Kimono. Seto closed his eye and whiped away the residue from his eye lid before turning his attention to Lesalia once more.

Seto

"I....Thank you for place such faith and trust in me, that is something not easy for many to do....I am grateful that my angel will follow me into hell and back.

My tale is long and difficult to those untrained to see or hear the horrifying natures of humanity............Where to being? Hmm.....

Well for starters, I can't say I have ever made my parents impressed with my actions, ever since I was a child......I was already at odds with my parents, why? I couldn't say for certain honestly, my Father was always distant from people, that's just how he was but my Mother errghhh.......Well even as a child, she did not like me since I showed no outstanding traits, it became extremely bad when I began spending my time with my Father when I became introduced to motorized vehicles since he was a mechanic.

Seeing my father's pride and joy, even to this day, it is a vehicle I can never forget about since it was the catalyst of what I was to become. Me and my mother grew more distant as the years went on, especially after she opened her own business when I was pre teen, when it became apparent that there wasn't enough drivers, my father tought me how to drive a vehicle quickly when I was thirdteen.

That os where the true origins of my tale begins Lesalia.... "

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The sight of her Master crying infront of her even at the fact it was only weaping caused Lesalia fly out of her chair and wrap her arms around him! This only made it easier for her when her Master told her he was thankful to her having trust and faith in her. She didn't know her Master for very long but even she knew this probably wasn't easy to talk about. She wondered how badly he was mistreated by many or how many misunderstood him. She knew it would be hard to convince someone but Lesalia thought her Master wasn't the evil man everyone thought he was. To her, her Master was more human to her than many of the players she had met so far why did everyone jump to conclusions? Her line of thinking ended when her Master told her he was glad his angel would follow no matter where he went. Her eyes widened so much from his words alone, she thought she would die from her face swelling red and freezing in place. She couldn't believe her Master just called her his Angel! And having so much faith in her! This only resulted in Lesalia holding her Master closer with her arms, determined to have her embrace would ease his pain! She kept her head next to her Master's as he begun to speak of his past and giving her the warning it was long. She didn't care. She was going to be there for him, she wanted him to depend on her all he wanted! She listened closely with her ear against his head.Even at the beginning of her Master's tale, it was sad. It was sad to hear her Master's parents didn't care for him like a parent should or think he was good at anything. His mother sounded nasty but his father sounded like him, it was good her Master spend time with him instead. She didn't know he liked vehicles. Seto didn't come off as the type who liked cars. Looks were deceiving and so were first impressions. The more her Master told his tale ahe couldn't help but wonder why his mother didn't like him so much? There had to be more reasons other than he wasn't good at anything? It came to no surprise to Lesalia her Master and his mother grew distance as he grew which only grew worse when his mother opened a business. She was surprised her Master learned how to drive so young. Maybe it was for the business? She listened closely still as she kept her arms around as she sat in his lap. This was only the beginning Lesalia thought? By the time this ended she thought she be crying more than her Master would!

 

Seto

Seto didn't scare easily, especially when Lesalia nearly leaped over the table to hug him, he didn't even seem to care, seeing no point in telling her to get off. He figured he would go with the flow on this one and let her hug him If she felt she need to. Seto was thankful the door to his quarters were locked otherwise people might have gotten the wrong idea with Lesalia sitting on his lap hugging him tight like. He did have to admit it felt nice to have her on her lap with her warm legs and behind making him feel relaxed............WAIT Why he was thinking this way???? This was no time for him to getting all cozy with an attractive woman sitting on his lap! He sighed as he facepalmed himself somehow for thinking such a way. Smacking himself seemingly brought him back to reality, he cleared his throat before he began speaking again.

"Where were we?........Oh right....well, my teenage years weren't exactly the greatest with family politics either. From an early age, I was best friends with a girl named Michiko which whom I used to spend a large amount of time with, to me she was a sister I could talk to and do anything with. We remained close throughout our childhood and for our teenage years however, that was when the next big event had transpired. When I was sixthteen year old I learned from my mother of all people I had been sworn to a arranged marriage with Michiko since before my birth.........Such new.......devastated me as I believed everything in my live was all planned out, fake If you will. Unlike myself Michiko never learned the truth until......it was too late. To me....I was unable to marry my sister, I couldn't even stand Michiko after that event to the point I choose to withdraw from my family by enlisting in the Japanese Defense Force.

The results......were fatel shall we say.....My mother disowned me and stopped talking to me once I abandoned my responsibilities to my family, Michiko tried to take her life once she read my letter I sent to her, only her father paid the price when she tried to shoot herself. After that event, Michiko became broken soon after, unable to do anything for many years and what came of me you ask? Well instead of becoming a married man and having children, I ran away from everything and instead became a soldier. What happened after that.......soon made me regret my actions when I saw the horror's of war and witnessed the true nature of humanity."