''Could be better, but I'll heal,'' and it wasn't uncertainty what was mixed in her tone but sheer disappointment. To hear him ask after she clearly meant to talk about the kiss they just shared made her feel quite disheartened, discouraged at the knowledge that maybe, to her partner, it meant nothing but a stupid coincidence which he could forget about with ease. For all her initial thoughts about punching him or setting some distance between the two, the only fact that offered comfort was the knowledge he wasn't currently able to see her face. Two could play this game of pretending nothing had ever happened, no matter how much she wanted to do the exact opposite.
''For starters... You worried about me,'' the words came out faster than she'd expected them to. Unable to meet her partner's gaze, unable to turn around and catch a glimpse of the green of his eyes, she remained still while she pushed herself off the ground and into a seating position, her body offering resistance given the wound she'd received from the swordsman during their encounter with the guards. ''And no, before you start, I don't think it was bad but there was something... Off, something I couldn't put into words. When I dealt with the guards who found us while you rested for a bit, you came rushing after me right after I gave you the signal to come out.''
Thinking back on all the experiences they shared, on every turn and twist of the story the two of them wrote whenever they met for a different job, there was never a time in which she'd seen Iván act this particular way. Portia recognized in him a different man than the one she always knew him to be when they were around others, she actually felt him, and it caught every panicked thought of the female by surprise. Earlier in the tavern, she met his more playful side, one that she was already used to from all the times they'd interacted with one another; but at the castle's wall, before and after climbing, there was concern in his eyes whenever he looked at her. Portia wondered if he secretly saw her as a crystal figurine who would break if she wasn't handled with appropriate care.
And, surprising as it might be, the thought alone was enough to pain her more than the wound staining her armor with tiny droplets of blood. Right then and there, as her hand was pressed against her side and a pained groan left her lips in response, the brawler realized it was too late to stop herself from reaching out, from asking all these different questions and setting her heart at ease. ''I don't even know what I am talking about, but these are the doubts I won't keep to myself even when every part of my body is begging me to shut up.'' The woman fell back onto her elbows, finally recognizing the swordsman got her good with that slash. ''What has you so distracted?''
What has me so distracted?
If there was one thing she knew about herself better than the other parts that composed the entirety of her being, it was her unyielding determination. No matter the cost, no matter how difficult the situation might be nor how far from her grasp it could be, once she settled her mind on a specific topic or objective, there was nothing in the world that could stop her from completing it. As she settled on the ground and closed her eyes for far longer than mere seconds, her lips parted. Portia was ready for yet another question, yet it didn't come out of her lips, seemingly caught in her throat by the fear of what his response might be.
Do you doubt me? My abilities, my company?